This year has been a year of much growth and busyness. I started taking classes this fall at a local community college hoping to one day get my Bachelor's in Psychology. That has been so much fun getting to know the ropes of how college works.
This is a field of work that God has been pushing me towards for many years. Although some of the steps to get to where I am today I could not have said at the time, was actually God leading me where I am today. I am so thankful that we are unable to see the future, because I probably would not be where I am today. This year has been a rollercoaster of decision making and having to dissect my feelings over and over again. But it has been really good for me as it helped me to know where I stand on a lot of topics.
In the beginning of July I started seeing a therapist for some issues from my childhood. I have the conviction that if I want to go into the field of helping people, I need to open those wounds and take care of them so that they heal so that I can effectively help others. That has been very painful but beneficial in my life and has brought up things from the past that I had forgotten but situations that had a major impact on decisions I made. As they say in the world of psychology. Hurt people hurt people, but healthy people help people.
You know how when God asks something of you he never demands or forces a response, but patiently waits while you process and make the decision. I am so thankful that I serve a patient God. Because if he would have been pushy about the decisions and places he wanted me to go, I would have done the rebellious thing and I would have went ahead and done the exact opposite of what he wanted.
So many times people ask me how I can make a decision based on the peace I feel in my heart. This is my answer. When one has an intimate relationship with God and has daily conversations with him about situations he guides and provides according to His will and you as a child of His will KNOW if this is where He wants you to be.
So this is a bit of a random post and not exactly what I had envisioned to write, but I hope that you will find some encouragement from it. And I also hope to do better in updating it next year!
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
